Deep in thought....

First, on my heart is Mari and her family. She is Heather's best friend and is having a very trying time in her life right now and really needs to be lifted up in our prayers.

Secondly, I just read Sandy's blog and I am deep in thought about this book she is reading, and the thought...what would you do if you knew you only had 30 days to live? God would get a lot more time and attention for sure!! Then I would spend more time with my kids and my grandchildren making some great memories for them to have of our time together. And more time with my parents and other family members also. I for sure would not care about how fat I am and my diet! or my lack of exercise! or if my house was spotless (well there would be a little throwing some things away so my husband and kids would not have to)! or keeping up with the Jones' would not be on my to do list...it is really not on my list at all anyway, for I don't care about all that stuff too much anymore already. Lord Jesus, help me get my priorities in order without finding I am on my death bed.

And even before all this talk of death, I had an appointment with our attorney(first time in my life to actually say that we have one)lol to get a trust set up for us and our will. I did not know it would be so much work!

But no matter what we are going thru or what is going on around us, we may not be "happy" BUT we can always have "joy" in our heart if we truly draw close to God and live by the Spirit. God's Word assures us of that!

So today I wander, what is on top of your priority list?

Is it cold or what?

Are you serious? Do we live in Alaska or something? This 0 temp is freezing even for me!!! Thank you Lord for my warm home and clothes on my back. I am finally feeling better, still some sinus stuff going on, but so much better.

So on my mind and my heart is the pamplet the church gave out for us to do everyday this week called Consecrate the people. Sunday was - call a sacred assembly; Monday was - prepare yourself, consecrate means to make clean, to purify or to set apart from the common, rofane or unholy. Tuesday was - return to your first love(Christ that is), Wednesday was - remove the idols in your heart, and today is humble yourself and put away pride. Now all of them have made me consider what I need to change or go back to, as I know in all honesty that I have been closer to God at other times in my life than I am right now. And I know He hasn't moved either way, but I have. So I am a bit sad in my realization of this. Then one of the things on the list of evidence that you may have pride is argumentative, now I don't think I have a problem with this, but I have never thought about a person that is like this does have too much pride...I guess in the fact that you think you do no wrong maybe...so you are always right? Anyway, I have way too many defects in myself that I must work on to be more like Christ! Pride, arrogant, haughty....consecrate yourself by returning to your first love.

Greg and I played WII bowling on Monday night and I beat him 2 games. Then we had our bowling night Tuesday night and I beat him one game in real bowling! Oops, yes I am boasting even though I just wrote all that pride stuff!!! But it doesn't happen too often and I am pretty sure as in lots of areas (such as alcoholic drinks, food, sports, etc) just a little is not bad, but when you over indulge in them!

The diet, no I mean the better way of eating, is going great! We did have a pizza SUnday night and I had 2 cans of dr pepper, but we got the smaller pizza and did not eat so much and there was none left to tempt me with the next day....YEA! But I have not had a soda since Sunday night and my goal was set right now at only one a day so thank you Lord I am doing it! It helps in my head to know I have to go weigh at my dietitians office every 2 weeks also!!! I really like her, and we laugh a lot, at me and with me.

I am getting rather excited that Sunday will be our first day at Cross Church Fayetteville, as it will be the first meeting in the new church they have branched out this way. I like the Springdale church, but not the drive there. Pastor Ronnie is a great preacher and I really enjoy Pastor Nick also, as he will be the pastor of the Fay. church. We are planning on joining the church on Sunday! It has been terrible not belonging to a church family and having trouble finding one that fits. I don't feel I will ever want to be a part of my old home church again, I have some very loved, old friends there that I will cherish forever though.

Trinity called last night and sold me some girl scout cookies. Now, why do they sell them right after the first of the new year and mess with everyone's diet??? lol I ordered a bunch from my big girl, but they are going to be rationed over the months.....

Just another thought: when we are set free from the bondage of pleasing others we will not be so miserable and dissatisfied(must be a word cause my spell check didn't light up). If we know we have pleased God, then we will be content. Galations 1:10 For I am not seeking the favor of men.....

Alex is 9 today!

My man, Alex is 9 today! He is not the only one getting older 'round here! I am still sick, went to the dr yesterday, said it is a virus, almost tonsillitis but IF I GET WORSE, come back for an antibiotic......excuse me! Was suppose to go get Michael today for his weekend home visit, but Mother and Dad are going to go pick him up instead.

I took Alex to pick out his own birthday gift last night, a new bike, his is too small now. Greg was going to go but he had to work in Harrison which made him later getting home. We went to Walmart and could not get anyone to help get a bike down, so I just helped myself and decided if I made the whole thing fall down, who cares? I liked the red one better and it was a 20", but he liked the green/white one which was an 18", when we got it home his parents decided he should indeed get the bigger one and will take it back and make the exchange this evening. Alex and I went to Taco Bell (his choice) to eat after our shopping (which also included a new helmet for the new bike...), I told him we were on a date and he said to me "technically, we are not on a date since we are not kissing" ok then!!!

The dr also said I need carpal tunnel surgery in both wrist, but the right one is way worse. The ortho office at Tahlequah decide who should get their surgery done and as I was told "mine is not top priority I will have to wait in line".....what the....ok so the care is free to me, but that doesn't mean my right hand feels any better over it! It hurts bad sometimes and is numb quite often....oh well, maybe someday they will have time for my surgery.

I am also seeing a dietitian who is helping with my diet changes and weight loss, and I will check in with her every 2 weeks so it will give me someone to be accountable to and I really like her, a young woman with a great sense of humor and you know that works well with me.

Thoughts to ponder: our peace, our soundness(I know you already question mine) of mind, our joy depend on what you believe and whom you believe. If what you believe does not agree with God's Word then it is a lie. Choose to believe God!!

It is about time!!

I wanted to get back to my blogging, not actually a New Years resolution, since I always break those pretty quickly...but at least try to keep up better after the new year. So here it is the 5th, so I am not too far behind. I am not feeling well, along with all my regular issues, I have a cold or something, you know, the nose, throat, coughing, sneezing, blah stuff.

We did get started on our diet on the first, a better way of eating, a change in our eating habits. I am trying to quit the soda and cut out the sugar in the tea. I know how to eat better.....it is just doing it that is hard. I am going to see a dietitian in the morning to help me out and keep me accountable on my weight loss.

Hoping to find me a small dog, Greg isn't too happy about it, but I kinda need someone to spend my days at home with. Yes, I do enjoy the quiet, but I am talking to myself a lot more and at least if you have a pet around it is not quite so embarrassing to be answering yourself also! hehe

My computer virus!

Ok, so, I can't do anything on my computer because it says every file has a virus......nice.....so this morning I call Dr. Brian and he tells me a couple things to try and if I can't do it he will come over tonight after work, and after he mows the yard to fix it for his MIL, now isn't that just AWESOME! That is so thoughtful and sweet. So I do a recovery or restore, I already forgot and it is back up and going. Yea, it didn't have to go to the hospital with its virus!!!!! I know I am a grown woman, but I can't help myself! I have been scrapbooking several hours this morning, laundry and stuff. I am excited to see the new movie opening today in the TWILIGHT series, BUT not so much that I have to go at midnight and stand in line or sit in the theater 2 hours just waiting for it. So see, this "adult" does have some self control. LOL Went with Whitney to the ER yesterday with Paris, got a place on her foot that had a red circle and a white circle and oozing and seemed to be a "hole" in the middle, so I thought maybe spider bite. Turned out to be staph infection, don't know how it started or where she got it, but man you gotta be clean and careful with that stuff or it will be everywhere there is an open place in your skin. She had a fever and just did not feel well at all. And then we went to eat at Zaxby's, because the guys were off work by this time, and my little princess barfed on me...my leg and foot, my arm and hand :( poor baby, this morning I think she is already feeling better, Praise the Lord!

One sad puppy

OH MY GOSH! Did I really stay up till after one this morning playing with this blog?? Oh yeah, and was up at 6:30 this morning, I am feeling it already!!

Honest, can we be for a sec? Do you want to just slap some people sometimes??? Ok I feel better! No more today on that topic! or may go find them and do it! LOL

Couple weeks ago I went to Uncle Loyd and Aunt Leona's 70th wedding anniversary in Wichita. I actually had a great time with my parents, (you know what I am saying here) was delighted to see them after I don't really know how long it has been. Age is really showing on them and Uncle Loyd is not the joker, prankster, full of it guy I have always known. But her side of the family was there, the ones they always stayed with in Arkansas, and all the memories they have together made me very sad for our dysfunctional family. I mean, really why would they have wanted to stay with my grandparents?? They always came to see us at least for a few hours, and I don't think they even visited with any of the rest of the clan at all!

My Mother, even though it was her in laws, always made them feel welcome in our home, that is why they came to our home. That is why family on either side, when in town, stayed with us, or at least came by to visit, is hospitality is a gift from God? I hope I have received this gift, and learned from my mother in this area.

So the sadness is knowing what I have missed with them and with my immediate family because of people not knowing that after our relationship with Jesus Christ, our family is very important, and good memories are needed so badly when you get older. So my point is this:

People are the only "things" we can take to heaven with us, not your money, career, fancy cars, boats, big homes, our "standing in this life", etc.....I want my family and people I love to know that I love them and want to spend eternity in Heaven with them!!

New Experiences

Ok, what do I do now? I think I will write and continue to figure out how to set this up later. I feel I should be able to write this like I would in a diary, but then again people are going to read it so maybe not quite like that. But I don't want to write this just to make you laugh and be about what I want you to think about me, so I feel it does need to be honest and what is on my heart at the time. If you get tired of reading this boring stuff, I understand.

My mom is 71 years old today. She is the best mother in the world, and no, she can't see this so I can be honest about it. I do get upset at her sometimes, but just don't know how I would make it without her and hope I don't have to find that for a very long time!

I mowed the yard and the neighbors yard, I can only do this because I have a riding mower, I had to quit pushing a mower years ago because of my back. It was still so very hot out there and I even did it several hours earlier than I usually do.

I hope to make these more enjoyable has I get used to doing this. But for now, I feel I need a nap and maybe later I can work on this again and add a picture or two of the cutest grandkids in the world!!!